Self discovery

I've got a bottle of red wine, some chocolate and pretzels, the new album by The National, and I'm skimming through some old magazines while watching bad TV with the sound off. I've got the house to myself until sometime tomorrow, and had no idea I'd enjoy it so much! :)

I just read this old Elle article about being single and enjoying it, and one of the points the writer made was how you should be comfortable in your own company before you can expect to be comfortable in someone else's company. I loved that article! She questioned the whole image of people not being a whole person until they find that significant other, and said that if you don't feel like a whole person then the last thing you should do is look for someone to fulfill you. Yay! Finally someone with the same opinions as myself!

It's only for the last year that I've started feeling secure within my own skin, and forming my own self image through discovering who I really am. And as much as I've hated living in this tiny place, completely secluded from everything and everyone that means anything to me (apart from Tess, and until Angie moved back home, obviously), I now realize that it's exactly this that has helped me figure myself out. Being alone and lonely, forced to spend lots of time in my own company simply because there's been no one else to spend it with.

Okay, so I don't know what I want to do with my life, but at least I know that I don't know. And I should stop panicking about it, because I will find out in time. All I can do is try this and that and see where I end up. And that's okay.

And this only after my second (albeit very big) glass of Merlot! Can't wait for the answers at the bottom of the bottle!