Trying once again to vent

I'm kind of considering talking to my boss tomorrow. But I don't really know what to say. I walk around with a lump in my throat and tears in my eyes all day lately, and I know that as soon as I get into my boss' office my bottom lip will start trembling, and I'll end up having a really bad cry. I don't even cry in front of people I know well if I can help it, let alone people i work with!

I won't sleep tonight either, and tomorrow morning I have to get up at 04.45 (!) and walk 40 minutes (because of the bad conditions of the road, it'll take about 10 minutes longer to walk) to the bus stop and get to work 15 minutes before the building opens, and be wet, cold and sweaty by the time I can get inside. And as if this wasn't enough, our cat bit my face earlier today, right on my cheekbone, and now it's all swollen, hot and painful. By tomorrow it'll look as if I got a bad shiner.

I should be in bed by now, but I've been spending so much energy trying to fight back tears that my body is in an adrenaline-driven emergency mode. I'm in dire need of something to do, and consider buying a memebership at the local gym. But that's where the people from work go, so I might end up seeing them more than I'm in the mood for. I also found a local place where you can do yoga, in more-or-less walking distance from work, every Monday. It's expensive, but probably worth it. Then maybe I can swim Wednesdays instead.

I need distractions. Just something to help me get through the next five months, so that I can quit when my contract expires. Which is easier to explain when applying for new jobs later. Just thinking out loud here.

And now my head hurts.